Discrimination against gays and lesbians in Russia and Kazakhstan remains widespread. People refuse to accept sexual minorities and consider them as freaks.
Dauren is 21 years old. He is a student.
He was 12 years old when once entered his grandfather’s room to wake him up. But grandfather never opened his eyes and Dauren called his mom. When he saw her face all bathed in tears he understood that life is a cruel thing.
At school he thought that something was wrong with him. He felt emotional about his schoolmate. He was scared but couldn’t stay away from the guy.
It took him long enough to understand that he was a gay. What he means is that this thought didn’t strike him at once.
Puberty is characterized by nervousness, sensitivity and irritation. But Dauren also had the feeling of inferiority, loneliness because he couldn’t share the feelings with anyone else and fear that his secret will become known to others.
He became asocial. He didn’t know any gays around who could advise him to take it easy. He felt he was a freak and started thinking over how to kill himself.